Just James

Name:	Just James
Date of Birth:	September 1987
Occupation:	ex-Warehouse Operative (Night shift), Mail sorter (Night Shift) Last known to be NEET
Ethnicity:	British

Just James (Active 2018-2022) is a 37 year old former gymcel virgin who occasionally vlogged about his inceldom. He actually looks good [1] apart from a slightly crooked nose and red hair and should try shirtless selfies on Tinder. He talked at length about the issues in his life. Such as body image, social anxiety, and being a victim of childhood abuse. His old channel description was as follows

"31 Year old Forever Alone Virgin Striving to better himself by giving up porn, entertainment and doing 1 Year NoFap Challenge, documenting the changes and nose job surgery to looksmax. Attempting to build a life from the ashes of failure and rise like a phoenix reborn. A truth seeker following the Straight and Narrow path after being on the path to destruction for years. Refocusing his mind and resetting his dopamine levels after being a dopamine feind for years. Also pursuing weightlifting and may document my weightlifting progress here or on youtube.com/theresidentone ----- my old Let's Play channel (not currently gaming): youtube.com/onexploits MGTOW, Truecel, Incel, Gymcel not part of the Incel or any community, a lone wolf outsider."

James disassociated himself from the "incel" label after BBC documentary appearance. He also specified that he disagrees with the incel view on the world.

Early Life

James was born in Northern Ireland in September 1987. Both his parents divorced when James was 3 years old and the ensuing instability had a great effect on him. James had an abusive and turbulent childhood. As a result of this environment, James became very socially anxious and naturally retreated into escapism. Particularly Entertainment & video games.

At school James would typically only have 1 friend at a time. Instead opting cut himself off due to viewing the world as hostile. After calling a practicing witch at School “Joy the Boy” James was cursed by her. He occasionally wondered if the trajectory of his life was the result of this curse. James was to receive interest from girls during school years but was too prideful and defensive to reciprocate his feelings.

At the age of 14, James’ nose was broken when a block of ice was thrown at it during rugby practice. James personally attributed much of the outcomes in his life to this insecurity. Another contributing factor to James’ anxiety was smoking extremely strong hash with his friend Mark. In his later high school years James would frequently bunk off to stay at home and play videogames.

University & Pre YouTube

James went to University in September 2006 to read Film & Media studies after getting one B and two Cs at A level despite never studying. By his own admission, James had done little research regarding the course and simply chose it because he enjoyed watching movies. James had renewed hope that university was to be a fresh start for him and that he would reintegrate with society.

James spent the first 2 years on campus but remained extremely isolated. To the point where he didn’t use the shared kitchen once. James put little effort into his university course and instead spent much of his time playing World of Warcraft and consuming media/porn. James described himself as “probably the most socially anxious and awkward person ever” during this time.

James’ depression grew increasingly worse at university. He would spend days in bed trying to “time travel” to escape reality. James had a few part time jobs during university but mentioned “cracking up” at them.

The course was 3 years long, but James ended spending 5 years there due to having to repeat the second year twice. He ended up dropping out towards the end of his final year meaning he never completed his degree.

James later discovered in July 2020 that he still had £31,589 in student debt to his name despite never completing his degree. "You shouldn't go to university unless you have a clear career path and plan, or you have to go and know you are going to succeed and get a decent job afterwards. Otherwise it's a Trap and you will be stuck in debt for many years paying of interest while the amount grows even larger."

After University, James was to remain NEET for 2 to 3 years. Much of this time was used to create content for gaming channel Onexploits. James later recalled that he was much happier at this time but still knew he was avoiding the real world. During this spell of NEETdom James was living with his mother and her partner. James made ends meet by selling his Music equipment he had bought with his student loans.

James claimed to have amassed over 500 real time days played on World of Warcraft over 10 years. And had also spent £1000's on WoW and Hearthstone packs.

In summer 2014 James got a nightshift job as a warehouse operative. James hated the job from the start but would remain there for almost 5 years. James had lost over £5000 in the Bitsane & Bitgrail scams in a desperate attempt to escape his job. By late 2018 James was at the end of his tether and after talking to Virgin Messiah & Tahlia (a former female TFL vlogger) was persuaded to begin vlogging.

2018

James first began vlogging in October 2018 aged 31. The content during this early era of James' vlogging was deeply personal and unfiltered, frequently covering topics such as porn addiction and depression.  James released his most famous video on the 3rd November 2018 titled: 31 Year old Forever Alone Virgin: How it happens. In this unfiltered vlog, James discussed at length the contributing factors which led to his life situation and warned younger men not to follow the same path. This vlog would remain by far the most viewed video on his channel with 3.1 million views amassed by the time his channel was wiped.

Shortly after this video, James would begin vlogging daily to document his NoFap (No PMO) journey and any general pursuits to hold him accountable. James did his best to remain positive but the daily vlogs would frequently relapse into depressive rants in his car while driving home from work. James was to experience his first romantic rejection ever from a girl online in November. Shortly after this, James released a series of legendary rants recorded while driving home from his warehouse job. These included: "A very NEGATIVE but honest rant" , "Truecels very negative life car rant/ vent", Another day, Another car vent (/rant) and "It's Over". Unfortunately none of these vlogs have been recovered. It is important to note that during this time James was still reeling from his Crypto losses as well as the hormonal instability from abruptly discontinuing his steroid use.

"Its Over" was probably James' lowest recorded point on the channel. James became more positive as the year drawn to a close. He released a cheerful Christmas vlog and a New years resolutions vlog documenting his goals for the upcoming year. James would repeatedly emphasise the importance of pursuing creative, productive endeavours instead of instant gratification. As well as putting negative energy under you to help you achieve your goals. He would often word this as "burying the shit in your garden". This unfiltered and edifying era of the channel was largely considered the golden era among his viewers. James would frequently draw wisdom from Ajahn Brahm, Anthony DeMello and Sadhguru when giving advice.

2019

James began 2019 with a 7 day waterfast and enema for health reasons and to help clear his skin of acne. James' acne was to be a common topic in his early 2019 vlogs. In "Why I have Cystic Acne- Vitamin S", James came clean about his steroid use and urged his viewers to stay away from them.

By February 2019 James was in a relationship with a 22 year-old Woman called Sara from Italy. She discovered his most famous video after it was posted on the 4chan /pol board and had contacted James through his YouTube channel. After this milestone James' channel would explode in popularity. Going from 400 subscribers in February, to over 20,000 by May.

James would vlog his visit to Pisa to see his girlfriend for the first time in May. James later admitted he and Sara argued after she refused to sleep over at his rented apartment.

James was fired from his warehouse job in May 2019 after telling a manger to fuck off when asked if his was alright after kicking a bucket out of the way. Before this, James had a series of workplace incidents such as smashing the safety glass on a door, almost hitting a female colleague with a forklift and rattling a cage in anger.

Documentary Appearance & Aftermath

At some point in early 2019, James was contacted by the BBC to appear on a documentary as a Former Incel. James would be under an NDA until its release date and they would frequently visit James to gather interview footage. The documentary titled "Inside the secret world of Incels" would release on July 2019, James was not made aware of the title or the footage that would be shown before its release.

James was extremely distressed and angry at how we was portrayed in the documentary. James showed the BBC a song about Elliot Rodger inspired by Eggman's "Alek Minassian" track.[2] A very angry rant titled: "Media misrepresentation and regret over BBC incel Documentary" was released by James the day after the documentary aired. The video description was as follows:

"I am not nor have ever been a "member of the incel community" I was involuntary celibate by ACEDEMIC definition not by association (I never labelled myself that or identified with that- I was that by academic definition- BY LIFE CIRCUMSTANCE so used it in some videos as I was advised to but wish I hadn't ever done that) https://rationalwiki.org/wiki/Incel. I wish I'd never associated with or used that term, and I'd highly advise any of you to never associate with that term either. They want to paint people who haven't had sex as sex obsessed entitled killers, just for relaying their past experiences and cost them future employment opportunities for being naive and gullible enough to believe they would tell a fair, unbiased and impartial story which is what the media is SUPPOSED to do... Mainstream media is full of misinformation, put out and twisted to fulfill their own agenda.

It LITERALLY said in my channel description before I met Sara "lone wolf outsider not a member of any community, seeking to improve and better his life and document his NoFap journey" So I always felt that way and never identified or labelled myself as anything, I used those labels to get clicks and views... that was my main mistake and I never should have done that in retrospect.

Warning this is a rage filled impassioned rant on media misrepresentation, quite negative, but sometimes you have to vent and get these things off your chest. Earphone users be advised to turn down the volume!"

James released a similar rant the following day, this time titled: Inside The Secret World of Incels- A piece of trash media (my thoughts)

"This was a complete trash mockumentary based on lies and misinformation made by misinformed people and will help no one. They just ruin peoples lives and create more suffering for me and many others labeled with this. I was manipulated and words put into my mouth and sold this documentary as a piece on dealing with young men and mental health issues. Tricked and deceived and presented in this freak show as a sub human to be pigeon holed and degraded.  This will effect my future employment opportunities and has already flared up my paranoia and trust issues from a point of being nearly cured. This sort of biased agenda reporting is unacceptable as is otherising people and dehumanizing them, associating them with killers for what? Being lonely, talking about the problems they face and expressing that? Now less people will open up about there problems for fear of being labelled this and linked to fake news terrorism and made up fundamentalism and as a result they will not get the help they need, feel hopeless and suicide rates will increase. Sure there are bad people in every community, but out of millions that is 4 people? I was never an incel, maybe by the academic definition (so I stupidly agreed to this thinking it would benefit me and my YouTube channel and help others with my main message of hope) and they used and puppeted me to tell the story they wanted to tell and push their own agenda. Divide and conquer is what they want and what they get. This will help no one and cause more problems than solutions. It brings nothing new to the table only fearmongering and spreading misinformation and lies. I wish I had never done this or gotten involved with this and they never told me the title of this until it was too late. Now I'm associated with this for life."

After breaking his nofap streak in June 2019, James decided to push forward with his plans for a rhinoplasty. In September 2019 James flew to Lithuania for the surgery. Specifically a septoplasty and rhinoplasty dorsal hump removal. While there, James would livestream a Q & A. He was initially happy with the results but his nose would remain a source of insecurity and physical discomfort for him.

James would once again visit his girlfriend in Italy in October which would cost him the last of his savings. It was at this time when James first came under attack by the infamous Manosphere Youtuber, The Unreal Man.

James would remain NEET for the remainder of 2019 but would continue to keep up his weekly vlogs. By the years end James was frequently playing World of Warcraft and Hearthstone again. James released another angry rant before Christmas in response to comments calling him autistic and people on discord making fun of karma. He then once again ended the year with a Christmas vlog & new years resolutions video.

2020

James began 2020 by becoming vegan. After viewing the "Gamechangers" documentary, James cited karmic & health reasons for his decision.

Several job interviews had yielded no response and James began to feel extremely lost in early 2020. In Chaotic talk- Meaning; Asking questions leads to more question, James stated:

"The ultimate truth is to know we know nothing. Anything we (think we) know is based on our limited senses which are confined to this limited dimension on a limited planet within an apparently unlimited and unknowable universe. Also anything we think we know will be lost with this form as this form is also limited. So is the search for knowledge fatally flawed? Should we just reserve ourselves to never question and to just enjoy life, observe and be aware. We are the eternal observers after all. But something in us yearns to know and to question. Once Pandora's box is open it cannot be closed again."

At the end of March James finally found employment again as a parcel sorter after 10 months of unemployment. James likened his new job as being "like Jesus on the cross".

James was sceptical of the Coronavirus Pandemic, believing the illness was a result of being in close proximity to 5G Technology.

Much of the same issues James faced at his previous job followed him into his new one. James once again began to lament "wasting his life" and feeling like "a pleb" at his new job.

It was around Summer 2020 when James became a target for a manosphere youtuber by the name of The Unreal Man. James was to remain a target of his videos until he left Youtube.

In June 2020 James would release a poignant topic video titled "On being a 32 year old Man-Child and how to overcome being a Man-Child: My experience". This was unquestionably one of James' most ground breaking rambles. The video description was as follows:

"Talking about my experience being a Man-Child living with my Mother after the age of 18 to 32 currently. It's a real thing and a tragic thing which cripples your social and mental development. If you want to get on in this world you have to fly the nest to grow and develop those skills a man needs. To break the strong bond between mother and son. But in order to do that we need strong phycological support and a strong responsible Father figure, which in this modern world, on both counts many of us are missing. Without a support structure and an example how can you grow into a well adjusted man? So you seek to escape and the mother seeks emotional support creating a destructive relationship between the devouring mother and the dependant Man-Child. Creating all sorts of mental health problems, insecurities and an overall inability to deal with life and the many challenges it throws at us. A sad state of affairs, who is to blame? Society? Perhaps. For the erosion of the Family unit, strong moral values, teaching men to be men, strong communities and guidance from elders all lost, and mainly and most importantly the absence of the rite of passage from boyhood to manhood. A marking violent, and sudden ceremony to dissolve the bond between Mother and Son which must be done in order for the Boy to become a Man. For this to be successful a death of youth must be achieved and marked through the rite of passage. These things worked and supported the delicate balance of human nature. Why do we not observe them in these modern times? We need this as men. We need to bring them back."

By the end of July, James was moved onto the night shift but continued to workaway to save money for his future life with his girlfriend. In August James was unsuccessful in completing the fire service recruitment process. Though initially dejected, James quickly picked himself up again and continued on. At the end of November James ditched the vegan diet and did a full depth video explaining his reasons why:

"Almost 1 Year anyway since I started in early January 2020 but had to stop this week as my weight was dropping fast as was my strength. I was feeling quite fatigued a lot, depressed, anxious and developed a tooth cavity, a hernia and painful bones (mainly knees). So this is my WHY I'M NO LONGER VEGAN, EX-Vegan obligatory video and physique update. So we can see the before and after vegan diet. Well at least after now I'm back on a more balanced diet. I still want to be as ethical as possible but I don't want to waste away and feel like garbage, be weak and fearful all the time. I wasn't as bad before the vegan diet and things got worse on it. Maybe because I ate too many beans, nuts, seeds which contain phytic acid if not soaked overnight and I ate them every day. Or maybe because I used vegan alternatives which are a bad idea as they are heavily processed containing many ingredients often unhealthy. Processed food is generally bad. Stick to simple whole foods for health. Another factor ofc was working nights and it being much harder to intake sufficient calories and nutrients on a vegan diet especially from food/ vegetables/ fruit bought in a supermarket which for example an apple on average is stored for 14 months before being sold... not much life force left in that. So personally for me the diet didn't work. For people like Clarence Kennedy and Vegan Gains it seems to. But for me it did not. I cannot continue to erode my mental and physical health away so I have stopped this diet as of this week. No longer vegan."

In November James revisited his most viewed video 2 years after it was published. James stated that he was in a happy relationship but was still a virgin and they were waiting until marriage before having sex.

James would purchase a new Mac Mini laptop in December to replace his dilapidating PC and help him fulfil his goals of content creation. This was a decision that was widely criticised by his viewers who seen it as a waste of money. Especially when James later revealed it was unsuitable for content creation.

In a car vlog at the end of the year, James discussed his frustrations with his channel and life. His girlfriend had recently moved to London to study and she had rejected a proposal for her to move in with him and his Mother.

James once again ended the year with a Christmas vlog where he discussed his goals of skilling up in the new year and moving in together with his girlfriend.

2021

James relapsed on nofap shortly after completing the 1 year challenge in February 2021. He was ultimately disappointed by the effects of nofap but still advocated for its practice. Believing a lot of damage had already been done, which could not be undone.

James' audience became impatient with his seeming lack of progress in moving in with his girlfriend. His audience urged him to move to London to be with his girlfriend. But James cited his gym equipment, knife crime & the 5G waves in London as reasons for wanting to stay put where he was.

2021 Crypto Crash

James regained interest in the Crypto currency markets in Spring 2021 following the rapid gain in Bitcoin value from late 2020. By May 2021, he had spent his life savings (Approximately £20,000) on various crypto currencies. Many of these were low market cap scams such as Safeplant, Clout Coin & Lunadoge which more or less went to zero after the May 2021 Crypto crash. After the crash, James bared all and shown all his investments in the video: "I lost my life savings in the Crypto Crash"

"I have no money in the bank and I'm left holding the bags... I will diamond hands and hold hoping to recoup my losses and get my money back. It's a shame I bought at all time Highs and it has only gone down from there a LOT. I just hope it recovers and goes beyond. There are a lot of sharks in crypto and you have to be cautious and wary. In the future I will prioritise savings and dollar cost average into trades, buying a little each month. But first I have to get my savings back and to do that I have to work harder than I was before in all my endeavours. I feel luck is earned and by being lazy and only doing my job and not much else I attracted bad luck and in turn made these decisions. Still it's not over yet, the market can and probably will recover so stay calm and HODL all. Cope or rope.

Da Bogdonoff conglomerate decided to DUMP EET when I went full FOMO all in at ATHs Got checked and rekt, Justed and adjusted. Left with the bags and rugged. I should be so lucky, lucky lucky lucky.

The title is somewhat clickbait as I certainly don't have any real fiat currency but I do have my devalued crypto assets as well as silver and 1 oz of gold. Not much but it's something.

I FOMO'd in in desperation trying to escape wage slavery and achieve financial freedom, fortune favours the brave I thought but what I did was idiotic. Live and learn or not. I made this same mistake in 2017/18 Acting in a state of desperation is never a good idea."

James was featured on a Coffeezilla video shortly after James also became a cult hero and meme on 4chan /biz, being likened to a Half Life 2 NPC. This turn of events would invite criticism from The Unreal Man and his own subscribers. The extent to which his portfolio has recovered is unknown.

The Unreal Man beef & YouTube Break

In Summer and Fall of 2021 James would frequently argue with his subscribers in the comment sections of his videos and become a target for trolls. By August James had stopped making the week vlogs and instead made only topic and response videos. Several videos were made in direct response to trolls during this time, particularly The Unreal Man whom he accused of terrorism for trying to get his channel taken down.

By September James was burned out from vlogging and took a break until mid Otcober. In "Updates, Break & the next 10 years" James stated he was: "Moving on in life and the beginning of a new chapter of life. Leaving behind the child and growing into a man, independent, strong as a rock, holding the tension, taking the appropriate actions and moving on, rejecting the useless and embracing the useful, building a life and a legacy, sacrificing my old ways of inaction, taking action and moving on, evolving into a man from a boy. Giving up my childhood, games, excessive entertainment and all my addictions."

James would return at the end of October. After taking 2 weeks off from his parcel sorting job to spend time with his girlfriend who was visiting him. Unfortunately, James was fired from his job for this and was once again NEET. In "34 Year old loser returns (JUSTed)", James once again reemphasised the importance of having a vision and destination in life to his younger viewers:

"No job, no prospects, no money, this is what happens when you don't do what you're supposed to when you're young, but instead distract yourself as much as possible till things get worse and worse. You need to have some sort of plan in life or apprenticeship to follow. I'm 15 years behind and nothing has changed. Maybe magic internet money will save me."

James would return once again almost 2 months later for his penultimate Christmas vlog. Between his last video and Christmas, James was still NEET and had moved into his Father's house after the house he rented with his Mother was being sold.

2022

James returned to Youtube in February with a very poigniant video titled: "Talking about Trauma and it's ripple effect (Mental Health)". In the description of the video James stated:

"Trauma can come from many sources and causes the brain to develop in a way that is not conducive to a social and peaceful society. Most people have some sort of undiagnosed trauma as we can't walk around in a bubble but we can choose to carry that trauma forward and be a force for evil and destruction or to say no to that evil and destructive force and be a force for good and love. Easier said than done but it's important to remember to be forgiving however we can't be naive to and of the world either, but what caused the problems in those that traumatise and terrorise others, their own trauma. Forgive them they know not what they do. For me it manifested into fear and twisted my physical and mental being which makes it harder to recover from. That's why it's important to intervene and give help to those in trauma. To help them heal and recover before it's too late. Generally trauma is best overcome in the teenage years and if not then can be extremely hard to overcome and heal from. Realising I suffer and have suffered from this stemming from generational trauma as well as my own childhood traumas is liberating. However it's no excuse to do nothing and to hide from the world as I did. But it's the reason I did as well as what manifested from it, my ugly character development, social ineptitude and physical & mental flaws."

At the end of the video, James revealed he had only £200 left in his bank account and asked his viewers for any help in securing accommodation and a job in London to be with Sara.

This was to be James' final ever vlog. 2 weeks later James began livestreaming a playthrough of Elden Ring. Over the course of March James would livestream over 100 hours of gameplay. However when discord trolls began asking him inappropriate questions James deleted the server and stopped answering personal questions. James' last known comment was as follows:

"Stupid chat bugged out, I am taking it off next time and anyone asking personal questions will be banned. I am playing a game and not responding to any personal questions nor answering any or sharing anything ever again of a personal nature so people can use it against me in any way. I don't care if no one watches I will finish this game, already ruined the play through with this stupid chat box and donation thing I don't need as no one donates anyway so why bother. I am here streaming to play a game who cares forget who I am. I am no one nothing, just like you and we will all return to nothing from where we came in the end stripped of our identity, ego and everything we know in death. Truly wish I had never shared anything and remained anonymous and just had this channel. Now I know what it feels like and why it's the stupidest idea to share anything about yourself and to especially be vunerable with strangers. They just are malicious and hateful and use anything and everything against you to cut you down, hold you down and keep you in negativity where they are. Dragging people down instead of lifting them up. I detest people like that. People like that are why we have to put up defences against others and be defensive and not open, be cold and apathetic and not show any weakness otherwise evil people exploit those weaknesses to their own gain. Ironically those exploiting the weaknesses are weaker than anyone but they don't expose themselves (but are sneaky and malicious) if they did they would be torn to pieces."

Disappearance

After the playthrough was concluded on the 1st April, James released one final video on his main channel showing drone footage over the Giants Causeway Coast in Northern Ireland. The removal of vlogs pertaining to his relationship during this time fuelled speculation that he had been dumped by his girlfriend. However this remains unconfirmed. Following the release of this video, James ceased all upload activity on his channel and would not reply to any comments. It is unknown whether this video was uploaded as a final farewell to his viewers or if he had retroactively decided to stop vlogging a sometime after. James was still NEET at the time of his disappearance.

In November 2022 James changed his YouTube Avi for the first time in his channel's history. It became a heavily edited and distorted image of his face leaving his viewers worried about his mental state and life circumstances. There was still to be no official word from James.

2023

A video titled "For The People Who Feel Lost in Life, This Video Will Help You Break Mindset Barriers" was added to a playlist in one of James' other channels in October 2023. Once again causing his fans to speculate that his life situation had worsened. Despite 100s of comments on his final video, James did not respond.

A new photo of James with his Father had been discovered of them together in Germany in October 2023, putting to bed the theory that he had died.

2024 - The Great Purge

In February 2024, suddenly and without warning, James conducted a mass purge of content on his channel. Nearly all videos were made private. Only nature and bike ride footage remained. The channel name was changed to simply "A Channel" (achannel8887) and the Avi was removed. All comments on his remaining videos were disabled. The next day, all past live streams were removed also. Why James suddenly decided to wipe his channel after almost 2 years of inactivity is unknown. Very few copies of James' original videos are known to exist. His early vlog are some of the most sought after lost TFL content.

An archive channel on YouTube was quickly taken down by James after some of his old videos were reuploaded.

Activity on his Channel was spotted when James changed his previously blank Youtube Avi to a photograph of a forest.

World of Warcraft accounts previously shown on stream by James have been active throughout his time off YouTube. However whether this is James playing or he has since sold the accounts is unknown.

In 2024, The LONE Youtuber covered James' story in a video, reigniting interest in what happened to him after he left YouTube.

See also

• Monday FA Monday
• James FT
• Former incel